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song: the hand that feeds
album: with teeth artist: nine inch nails just how deep do you believe?
will you bite the hand that feeds? will you chew until it bleeds? can you get up off your knees? are you brave enough to see? do you wanna change it?  I find nine inch nails lyrics evocative in a way few bands have accomplished. kind of funny, considering all the emo shit I listen to.
09/22/24 |
song: guilt tripping
album: stomachaches artist: frnkiero andthe cellabration "don't go," she said
I wouldn't mind but I'm cold inside I've felt so bad for so long, I'm scared I'm fine so many stars in the sky and I don't know why they always have to fall on me maybe I'm blind to all of the signs that the world never wanted me about this album, someone I follow on tumblr said something to the effect of "I can't believe he wrote this and didn't kill himself," which is not necessarily a thought I've had before about a work, but it remains a fat mood nonetheless.
09/15/24 |
song: gold medal ribbon
album: misadventures artist: pierce the veil I swear that I can hear you in the wind
you're singing to me and dancing in the halls outside again I'm always listening I'm always listening (I swear, I swear, I swear) having one of those days where I got to "I'm always listening" and started crying. you know how it is.
09/14/24 |
song: true romance
album: this is forever artist: she wants revenge when could you tell it was over?
when did you turn on me? I'd cry if I thought it would change your mind cry for the girl I'd hoped you to be do you ever have those moments where nothing in your life has materially changed but you can still feel that it's taken a turn for the worse
09/13/24 |
song: i'm looking forward to joining you, finally
album: the fragile artist: nine inch nails I've done all I can do
could I please come with you? sweet smell of sunshine I remember sometimes it's that time of year again (summer). I am very sad.
05/19/24 |
song: drunken lament
album: you're awful, I love you artist: ludo I'd ride in your pocket all day,
but I just don't fit say the word and I'll change I'm throwin' a party tonight I drink more than a sailor on shore pour the rum in my eyes, tell me lies I'm on break so naturally I took a 4 hour nap when I got home from work. I like how melodic this song is.
04/30/24 |
song: liar (it takes one to know one)
album: louder now artist: taking back sunday I'm an addict for dramatics,
I confuse the two for love you can't tell me that you don't beg liar (liar), if we're keeping score then we're all choir boys at best (intrusive and arrogant) this song has been stuck in my head ALL DAY. it got above 80 degrees today and I am suffering.
04/29/24 |
song: sophomore slump or comeback of the year
album: from under the cork tree artist: fall out boy the best part of "believe" is the "lie"
I hope you sing along and you steal a line I need to keep you like this in my mind (so give in or just give up) (are we growing up, or just going down?) are we growing up or just going down? it's just a matter of time until we're all found out take our tears, put 'em on ice 'cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light one of my favorite fall out boy songs. 15 year old me ate this shit up.
04/28/24 |
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song: today i saw the whole world
album: misadventures artist: pierce the veil today I saw the whole world
and I think heaven has a plot to take my life listen, I'm the one who made you I'll be the one who brings you down this will be the last time my scandalous secret is that I prefer the acoustic version. happy last song journal entry of 2023!
12/31/23 |
song: dangerous (feat. joywave)
album: 2.0 artist: big data you understand I got a plan for us
I bet you didn't know that I was dangerous it must be fate, I found a place for us I bet you didn't know someone could love you this much this song rewired my brain as a fourteen year old. vivid memories of sitting on a bus, listening to this song, writing homestuck fanfiction. I think a part of my soul will always be there.
10/08/23 |
song: an unhealthy obsession
artist: the blake robinson synthetic orchestra you just don't know it yet
but you love me, and I love you the same one day we'll have a pretty wedding and I'll be your everything we'll be together, yes forever we will never, ever part you don't know it yet but, baby, I've already got your heart spotify generated a "romantic mix" for me and this was one of the songs it chose??? literally laughed out loud when I saw it. other noteable choices include "obsessed with you" by the orion experience, "sick obsession" by landon tewers, and "the horror of our love" by ludo. no notes!
06/15/23 |
song: be nice to me
album: rose artist: the front bottoms well, I try to write you poems
but the words, they don't make sense my hand tries to grip the pencil but the fingers are too tense and I try to show emotion but my eyes won't seem to wet and I'd love to tell you stories but I can't remember how they went my birthday went a lot better this year than it did last year, and I'm very grateful for that. sometimes life dumps a truckload of issues on us and we don't realize how deeply it affects us right away
06/03/23 |
song: earthquake
album: lies for liars artist: the used let me save us
I've slaughtered us I've murdered our love I can taste it, this blood in my mouth this knife in my lungs have I murdered our love? have I murdered our love? 'cause, baby, I'm not all right when you go I'm not fine, please be all mine I never want you to go because I am all yours so please be all mine I was hashtag #memeing this song in my status a couple days ago when I realized I hadn't actually done an entry for it here. anyways I'm a slut for murder+love imagery, what else is new
05/29/23 |
song: even when i'm not with you
album: jaws of life artist: pierce the veil I believe in the slow ride so
I drag your heart through the sand and snow I inhale the future slow I exhale the past, let go oh, I've been wrong heart under the gun look how far we've come think I've finally won I wasn't a fan of this song originally, but it's grown on me. I've come to really like its ballad style.
05/15/23 |
song: no children
album: tallahassee artist: the mountain goats our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
we're pretty sure they're all wrong I hope it stays dark forever I hope the worst isn't over and I hope you blink before I do and I hope I never get sober and I hope when you think of me years down the line you can't find one good thing to say and I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out you'd stay the hell out of my way I just think it's very funny to recite these lyrics like you're giving a tedtalk. really channel the energy of a middle-aged divorcee.
12/20/22 |
song: if i'm james dean, you're audrey hepburn
album: with ears to see and eyes to hear artist: sleeping with sirens they say that love is forever
your forever is all that I need (it's all that I need) please stay as long as you need can't promise that things won't be broken but I swear that I will never leave (I will never leave) please stay forever with me this song is Peak emo romance. if it isn't this 2010 myspace shit I don't want it. need to marry a gay bitch so we can play this at our wedding
12/01/22 |
song: helena
album: famous monsters artist: misfits if I cut off your arms
and cut off your legs would you still love me anyway? if you're bound and you're gagged, draped and displayed would you still love me anyway? why don't you love me anyway? why don't you love me anyway? watched the movie because of this song. don't do that. my advice is to enjoy the song as is.
11/23/22 |
song: (don't fear) the reaper
album: agents of fortune artist: blue oyster cult come on, baby
(don't fear the reaper) baby, take my hand (don't fear the reaper) we'll be able to fly (don't fear the reaper) baby, I'm your man this song came on the radio and it really surprised me. it's always weird hearing songs I actually like on the radio. it happened with death cab for cutie a few weeks ago too.
05/17/22 |
song: foundations of decay
artist: my chemical romance and if, by his own hand, his spirit flies
take his body as a relic to be canonized, now and so he gets to die a saint but she will always be the whore where were you when hit american alt rock band my chemical romance released new music for the first time in over eight years. AND it's friday the 13th. blessed day for emos and queers everywhere.
05/13/22 |
song: sarcasm
album: best kind of mess artist: get scared you could be the corpse
and I could be the killer if I could be the devil then you could be the sinner you could be the drugs and I could be the dealer everything you said is like music to my ears I originally found get scared through creepypasta amvs in middle school. that tells you everything you need to know about me as a person, I think.
05/11/22 |
song: lovesong
album: disintegration artist: the cure however far away
I will always love you however long I stay I will always love you whatever words I say I will always love you I will always love you I hate the 311 cover of this song. I didn't know this song was by the cure until LAST YEAR. disintegration is a THIRTY YEAR OLD album. bro.
04/11/22 |
song: i'm a fake
album: in love and death artist: the used my sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black, broken heart love is not like anything, especially a fucking knife! if franz kafka and bert mccracken were on the moon and one killed the other with a knife would that be fucked up or what
04/10/22 |
song: follow you
album: that's the spirit artist: bring me the horizon come sink into me
and let me breathe you in I'll be your gravity, you be my oxygen so dig two graves, 'cause when you die I swear I'll be leaving by your side I think this album marks the start of bring me the horizon's decline as a metalcore band. doesn't mean these lyrics don't still slap tho.
03/31/22 |